When do you say enough is enough?

When Do You Say No More?

This is a question that I have been pondering over a great deal in the last few weeks. It’s been a tumultuous few weeks for me. An old penpal that I had stopped writing to managed to track me down a couple of weeks ago. I was horrified at first!

Then after a week or so of thinking about the question that had been posed to me by the penpal in question – “will you write to me again?” I decided that I would. Now I terminated the correspondence last time around because I simply felt too goddamned uncomfortable around this person. All her letters ever did was complain about her ill health and pain. I felt utterly drained with every letter. Eventually I snapped – it felt like I was being sucked dry. All of my positivity, all of my cheeriness and my effort to stay calm was being bled from me. It actually felt as thou I had become the feeding station for a Psychic vampire.

A psychic vampire is a term used to describe a living person who “drains” others emotionally. They do this either empathically or metaphorically (someone who takes emotionally without giving anything back; a “user”).

When a psychic attack takes place, the psychic vampire receives an energy surge while the victim experiences fatigue.

People who suck the energy of others normally do so unwittingly. This sucking takes place when one’s energy is depleted and needs to be replenished, and as a result, sucks the energy of another person. It is not unusual for a person who is ill or feeling inadequate emotionally to draw upon or deplete energized individuals of their life force. These so-called “suckers” are not bad people, most of them are not aware on a conscious level that they are doing what they are doing. Still, their unknowing actions can play havoc with anyone who leaves an energetic opening for this type of thievery. Now the traits of a psychic vampire are thus: they experience feelings of abandonment or rejection, need constant reassurance, they never feel satisfied, they constantly seek nurturing and they constantly exhibit low energy or fatigue.

The person that I’m speaking about left me feeling wrung out after a while. She never ever seemed to want to share anything with me. It was all about what she could take.

She exhibited every single one of the above mentioned traits.

Yet when my other pen pal said she wanted to write to me again, what did I say? Like a great gormless git, I said yes. I said yes because I firmly believe that everyone has the right to one second chance. This time I am ready. There will be no hard feelings and no third chances.

So how would you feel? Would you give a second chance?

Unboxing & Review of My Final Blurt Foundation Buddy Box April ’18…

Well, as I said in my last post about the Buddy Box, this is my last one that I was going to be getting. I’m sure that lots of people like these boxes but they are just not for me. No way. I’ve really tried to get on with them, but they are just not for me. I think I know why. I have five passions in my life: my kids, cats, stationery, Kawaii stuff and yummy snacks – in that order. I genuinely think that is why I get so much more fun out of the stationery, cat and snack themed boxes.

So, here we go. The top of the box was a picture of a bear on a bike juggling lemons I think.

Upon delving into the box, I uncovered the usual two postcards. One of which you can send to people and one of which has the box contents on the back.

The first thing of substance was a big bag of “comfort me” tea bags from the English Tea Shop. They contain chamomile, spearmint,amalki, basil, ginger, vanilla and marjoram (all organic). I’m a bit reluctant to taste this as I’m not a lover of herb teas, I much prefer fruit teas.

Then came a tin of Badger’s organic sleep balm. I was actually super happy with this as I’ve used it before and it really helps. It contains both lavender and bergamot. You just pop some on to your temples at bed time and it really works.

Next comes a sample size sachet of a skin care scrub made from coffee grounds and lemongrass. Allegedly after a sweaty session in the gym this will really pick you up. As I’m in a wheelchair I don’t tend to go to the gym too much. Maybe I’ll be able to use it after trying to put my slippers on in the morning! 😉

Then there’s a block of post it notes which all say on them “three things that are ok for today.” I think the premise here is that you write down here things that you would not normally do in a day. If it is on that post it note, it’s ok for that day. I’m thinking it’s more Netflix/pizza/chocolate type of deal than kill your boss though you know?

Then comes the book. It is an international best seller written by a French guy called Fabrice Midal. The book is called C’est La Vie: The French Art Of Letting Go.

Lastly there is the usual Blurt “zine” which has an adorable Pug picture on. I love pugs so much!

Well so long Buddy Box.

Be kind to each other.x

Unboxing & Review of My March ’18 Blurt Foundation Buddy Box…

For some reason that I just could not put my finger on, I have never really got along with the Buddy Box. I honestly don’t know why but it has never resonated with me like the other subscription boxes that I get have. So this was my next to last box as I just couldn’t carry on with them anymore.

The box lid had a picture of a snail on it. Urgh, not one of my favourite creatures at all.

The first two things I discovered at the top of the box was two picture postcards. One was useable and the other had the contents of the box printed on the back of it.

Next item was a “One step at a time” iron on patch.

Next item was some vanilla rose bath salts which smell utterly wonderful and are very relaxing in the bath.

Then we come to a little DIY pack to make an “instant comfort pocket box” which appears to be a very flimsy little cat face in a matchbox.

Next comes a small booklet called “Make it happen”.

Finally there there is a book called “Just Be You”. The book is full of quotes.

Let us not forget that there is also the little “blurt zine” which focuses on a couple of issues per month.

Sadly I just can’t blend with this box at all, so it’s a bye bye blurt from me when my subscription is up next month.

Be kind to each other.

Things You Take For Granted…

There are many things in this life that we all take for granted and are not in the slightest bit grateful that we have the ability to actually do them and do them without even thinking about it.

Little things like brushing your own hair and brushing your own teeth are so underrated… until you cannot do them by yourself. I cannot brush my own hair. My carer is awesome, but has so much to cope with that little things like my hair get forgotten about. Then I end up feeling guilty that I have to ask. Then half an hour later I have to ask again as it has been forgotten and so on and so on. I end up in floods of tears as I feel like I’m nagging for something that is so simple that is so simple, I should be able to do this for myself. Yet I can’t. I try to lift my arms up to get my hands to my head and my shoulders crack and searing agony shoots across the top of my body. My shoulders will not move more than an inch before they crack and pop, and if I’m not careful, they will dislocate. That, my dear readers hurts like a bee-otch I can tell you. I can’t brush my own freakin’ hair and I hate myself for it. I feel so freakin’ useless because of it. I really miss just being able to lift up the brush, style and go.

Brushing my teeth. That, like most of the hygiene related tasks that I can relate to is so difficult. On the good days when I can stand at the sink, I have an electric toothbrush, but when I can’t make it? I have to use listerine strips.

All of these little things. Hygiene, dressing, getting to the loo and even pampering yourself. Little things that you take for granted when you are “healthy”. You simply do not realise just how much you miss them until you can not do them, and the effect that this can have upon you as a person can be quite devastating, it really can.

I miss ironing. Yes, I know that you will all recoil in horror, but I genuinely did love ironing. I would put on some classical music and happily stand there till it was all ironed. Socks, underwear, towels, the lot. Even something as mundane as housework. Even things you hate (for me that was hoovering) but ironically I even miss that.

I guess that my point here is that you do not realise just how valuable little mundane aspects of your life truly are. Things that you would do without even thinking about it. Spreading your own butter on a piece of toast. Opening a can of fizzy juice. Those are the kinds of things that you do not miss until they are no longer a part of your everyday life.

I’m slowly learning how to cope with this aspect of my illness, and every day that passes, I become a little more adept at coming to terms with what I no longer have the ability to do due to my illness. I’ll never be completely over it but in life, we must learn to adapt when our circumstances change and we cannot prevent it.

I guess that what I am trying to say is this. Never, ever be upset or ungrateful about little things. Be glad, be happy that you can pick up that iron or push that hoover. Be glad you can make your own cup of tea or coffee. Be glad you can stand in the shower and not have to sit on a chair and have someone wash you while you are there.

Give thanks every day for the small stuff. Never ever lose that, and always love your life.

Well, I guess that is all for this time so I’ll finish here.

Be kind to each other.x

How to feel fresh when your pain is so bad you could scream…

If you are a Spoonie, otherwise known as a sufferer of an invisible, chronic illness then what I’m about to say will make an awful lot of sense to you. If you are a relative/carer of somebody with an invisible or chronic illness then this may well make an awful lot of sense to you too.

There are days (like today for me) where clothes become an intolerable pressure on your skin and the friction is just too much to bear. I just can’t stand the feeling. I have hyperaesthesia which basically means extreme sensitivity of the skin. On days when it is really bad, I can’t stand to wear clothes at all. Most days I’m able to tolerate light cotton but nothing heavy, fleecy or woolly. Yet days like today? Nekkid is all I can tolerate.

The inability to wear clothes some days is amplified when my pain is bad. On those days, even my bedding is too much and I can’t stand it. So on cold days I have to go without blankets or sheets. Luckily for me, I love the cold weather so being cold really does not bother me at all.

There is one big problem when you feel this ill. There are some days where you simply do not even have the strength to stand at the sink for longer than 2-3 minutes. This makes maintaining your own hygiene very difficult indeed. I need help anyway. I am unable to lift my arms to brush my hair and I’m unable to reach from side to side of my body to wash properly, hence why I need a carer. Yet there are some days when (like today) I can’t even tolerate the feel of a flannel on my skin. It’s just too much.

If you have similar problems to mine, then I have a few suggestions that might help to make your day a little bit nicer. After all, hygiene is a vital part of feeling good about yourself so the more that can be done to help you the better. If your pain and general symptoms really are making you feel that shitty, then hopefully these suggestions will help you.

The first thing that I used to do in the morning, when I was able to maintain my own hygiene, and was working, was to wash my face. This product still allows me to do that. They are called Wake Up Wipes. They are brilliant value at just £1 a pack and really do make your face feel refreshed and bright to face the day. They contain cucumber extract and feel great on your skin. They can be found here:


Next up comes your mouth. There is nothing worse than morning dog breath and when you cannot make it to the sink to stand and brush your own teeth, it really does not make you feel very nice about yourself at all. I’ve discovered these little disposable toothbrushes on days when standing at the bathroom sink is not an option. They are called Colgate Wisp Max Fresh single use toothbrushes. They are really handy. Of cosier, brush your teeth when you can, but these little buggers are awesome on days that you just can’t. You can also use listerine strips which are great breath fresheners…


Then there is the issue of maintaining your personal hygiene which can be a huge issue. If you are unable to wash, you feel smelly and generally very low. Being able to give yourself a quick wash, even if it is with wipes, it really does lift your mood. There are several brands of bed bath wipes. Shop around as you can find them quite cheaply if you try.

There is also the issue of feminine hygiene. I use Femfresh wipes for that. They can be found anywhere and are probably cheaper online if you look.

Lush’s Silky Underwear dusting powder helps absorb sweat and smooth your skin while the essential oils and herbs work to knock out the effects of bacteria. The Silky Underwear powder has a light jasmine fragrance and contains grated cocoa butter to help it melt onto your skin, creating a silky sensation. I love it!

If you can’t wash at at, a little surgical spirit on a cotton wool pad will remove body odour before you put on deodorant.

Witch hazel is a great way to cleanse your skin and it helps to cool the skin when overheated.

I also buy all my skin care from Lush, but since I discovered and fell in love with the marvellous Antonella The uncensored reviewer :

https://youtu.be/W7m4_6BD8cQ (Just one of her many awesome videos. BE WARNED: NSFW and definitely NOT FIT FOR CHILDREN!)

I will most definitely be trialling some of the skin care that she recommends.

There are other things like dry shampoo – I use the Batiste tropical one, but because my hair goes all the way down to my ass, one can doesn’t last me long!

Well I hope that this blog piece helps you, even if it is just to give advice to a relative. That’s all for now.

Be kind to each other.x

Unboxing and Reviewing of my Under The Rowan Trees Subscription Box – Feb ’18…

This box arrived the same day as My Boxcitement box, but as I explained in the post about that box, I had some issues with my children and they have to come first.

However, here I am now, to talk about the beautifully named Under The Rowan Trees Subscription Box. The box was a nice slim white box that had a really pretty personalised company stamp on it. Rowan trees mean a great deal to me, so finding this subscription box was a stroke of luck in my eyes!

I must stress here that the box was not free. It was purchased by my partner as a birthday gift.

Should you want to know more about subscription boxes and everything else this fabulous little company do, you can find it here… https://undertherowantrees.org/

As I said, the top of the box is decorated with a very pretty little stamp. I loved it.

The box’s contents were prettily wrapped in purple tissue paper with a sticker bearing the company logo.

Upon first peeling back the tissue paper, I found a stunning iridescent sequinned pencil case. There were black sequins, and depending on which way you tilt the case, the sequins appear either blue or green. I’ve done my best to capture it in the photo.

Then we find a diary page for the month of March. It has a very pretty under the sea type of picture along the bottom of it.

Next come two gorgeous A5 sized pieces of deco paper that could be used for many things. The first one is almost see through and has an under the sea theme to it. The second piece has mermaid scales on it. We also get a sheet of six round stickers that are mermaid scales coloured in blue, pink and purple with black outlines.

I then find a gorgeous clear mermaid sticker that I haven’t decided what to do with yet. She will be going somewhere very special I know that.

Then comes a gorgeous iridescent pen that is twist on/twist off and has falling glitter at the end of the barrel.

There is a gorgeous purple (favourite colour folks!) mermaid stamped onto a buff brown piece of card. Now you could use her as a gift tag but uh-uh, no way! She is going to become my new book mark. Sorry trusty old Tesco’s receipt. You are going to be replaced. It’s not you, it is me. Defiantly! 😉

Next comes an iridescent pink/green/blue dolphin shaped paper clip. Too cute! There is also a gold coloured bulldog style clip that has pink material on it with a gold mermaid on. Then we find a white mermaid shaped charm and I’m not quite sure where she is going yet.

The final two items of the box are two gorgeous rolls of washi tape. One has slanting lines going all the way around in changing colours of gold, pink, green and blue. The other roll is all colour and no gaps. It melts in between the same four colours and it looks absolutely stunning!

I love, love, loved this box! I have always had a soft spot for mermaids and this box found its way into my heart. Thank you so much to all the staff at Under the Rowan Tree!

A ten out of ten subscription box!

Unboxing and Review of My Boxcitement Subscription Box – Feb ’18…

This box arrived the other day. I’ve had things going on with my children so apologies for my lack of presence for the last couple of days. I have two boxes to review, so I’m going to choose to review this one first. The Boxcitement subscription box can be taken up as a one off, or at £18 a month. If you take up a longer subscription, then the prices can be even cheaper still. You can find all the information that you need about it here… http://boxcitement.co.uk


I must stress that I have not been given this box for free. It has been paid for my myself.


The boxcitement box was quite thin. It looked really cool as it had some worded tape placed around the box in the way that we used to tie parcels up with string. The box was white and the tape a buff brown colour. It had the words “boxcitement consignment” all the way around the tape. Excuse the pyramid of colourful cats, that was covering my address.



Upon opening it, there were no distinctive smells or perfumes. Inside the box was wrapped prettily with white embossed tissue paper and a boxcitement sticker.



Stuck to the top of the inside lid was a card with the words “Happy Go Lucky” printed on the front. I removed it but deliberately didn’t look as I didn’t want my surprise to be spoiled as I dug into the box.



The first thing I found was a “happy habits” planner card. This had some tips on the back of things that might make you happy and on the front there is a month’s long planner for you to mark off certain things that you have done each day.



The first thing I found in there was a fabric purse with the phrase “Today is a Good Day” on it.


There was a handy small tin that can be reused for storage or as a gift container for someone else (I’m all about upcycling!) and inside the tin is a long cord wrap around bracelet which I will have to gift to someone as I am vegan. It’s very cute though.



Then there are two greetings cards in there. One that says “Happy Birthday” and the other says “Could be Worse”. Both are blank inside.



A pack of three pencils for use however you please. I prefer writing in pencil as it means we are reducing the amount of plastic we are using.



There is an A6 notebook that isn’t particularly large but can be used as a notebook. I might keep mine by my bed. Sometimes I think of things when I’m half asleep and never remember them when awake! It’s bullet journal style paper but so what. I can use it for notes.



Finally there is a cute little “Happy as a Lamb” pin to wear. He is limited edition for this box only and he’s very sweet.



The boxcitement staff are fabulous and very helpful. A gorgeously well put together subscription box! I can’t wait to see the next one!

Self Care and it’s Importance in Mental Wellbeing…

This might make you laugh. A person who is certifiably mad… yes madder than a mad thing from the planet mad… as mad a box of badgers… as mad as cheese… and any other description that you can come up with… yep, I’m mental. So how the hell can I talk to you about self care and mental wellbeing? Well that is exactly what I’m here to try and do.

I’ve never thought that I’ve had much of a talent or gift for writing. I never thought my brain was that much of a clever thing, being more of a lump of wet putty hiding out in a corner, rearing up like one of the zombies from Michael Jackson’s Thriller video and screaming noooooooooo! I will not think! I will not be creative!

This time around, it really does have to be my poor soggy wet grey lump that does some thinking about looking after itself and indeed the rest of me.

Self care has always been an alien concept to me. From a very young age I have always been thinking of other people and what makes them happy. Never what makes me happy. Never what is good for me. I’ve always neglected myself in favour of what is right for other people. I guess I was a nurse and a carer before I even knew it.

My grandfather always used to say to me that I was born with an old soul and that I was destined to care for other people. When I was a little girl, my dolls and teddy bears were constantly bandaged in various ways and being “nursed” back to health, only to be bandaged up again. I used to love to help grandpa to look after the animals on the farm and I learned very quickly how to recognise signs of distress in both animals and humans and how to be able to help alleviate that stress.

From a very early age, I knew that I wanted to be a nurse. My ‘father’ was adamant I would be a barrister but he lost the right to tell me what to do when he kicked me out of the house two weeks after my mum’s funeral when I was 16 years old.

It wasn’t an easy time for me and there was a lot of struggle and stress involved. What happened then is another post for another time however and not what I’m aiming to talk about at this juncture. I’m trying to talk about my mental health right now.

I first started to display OCD tendencies at the age of almost 10 years old. It started out that I had to scrub each part of my body fifty times before I would feel clean. If I couldn’t manage the count to fifty swipes of the flannel then I wouldn’t feel “even” and both my mother and my grandmother would be hurt. That is the fear that was eating away at me. Then I became obsessed with the idea of putting bleach in the bath to get me clean. I got as far as pouring it in and getting one foot in before my grandmother came in and stopped me from doing it. Ever since that night, I’ve been unable to stomach the smell of bleach. But because I couldn’t do it? I pulled out bits of my hair for hours until I fell asleep

That was the development of my trichitillomania. Whenever I get anxious about something or can’t do what I need to do, my hand automatically reaches up to the side of my head. I always tend to go for the same two spots every single time that I need to do it. So I have two patches, one on either side of my head, where the hair is very short and wispy.

This is where the self care starts to come into the equation. I bought myself some pretty hair ties, the type you can do in a bow or a knot on top of your head. They work really well to hide those patches. What else I discovered was my passion for brightly coloured wigs. I probably own wigs with every colour you can think of in there somewhere. I’ve got a wig head that I can brush and style them on before I put them on my head and it really does make me feel like a different person.

That, to me, is a vital part of self care. Knowing the things that make you happy, whether they are big or small.

Then I talked about my recent foray into the wonderful world of Lush in a recent blog post and how looking after my skin has made me feel so much better.

The key here is not to try to take huge leaps into doing things for yourself. Spend some time thinking about you and what it is that you like and what it is that makes you happy. Those little things can make all the difference. I realised two things recently. The first is, it’s ok not to be ok and the second is you can put yourself first.

Be kind to yourselves.x

A Review on My Latest Lush purchases…

Well dear readers. This was the time that I decided that I was really going to make an uber conscious effort to look after my skin. As I have slightly sensitive skin, but not too bad, I wanted to try a brand of skin care that would not only care for my skin in a kind and environmentally way but would also smell the dogs doodah’s 🤣🤣🤣

So what was the choice then?

Without any shadow of a doubt I knew right away that I would be going to none other than the amazing, the incredible Lush!!! (Damn, I should be on some kind of commission here!) 🤣🤣🤣 But all joking aside, Lush have always wowed me with just how amazing their products are. The only little downside is glitter and bits stuck into the bathbombs. It just means that will go down into the ocean. Day-um Lush, you smell good enough without any of that crap. You don’t need it!!! My favourite Lush bath item is a melting marshmallow moment which you just plop into a hot bath and climb in there to be transported on a smell of wonderfulness. I also love snow fairy shower gel. Its like a melting marshmallow bomb to make you smell ooooooooh pretty. I buy about three bottles a year when it is released as it only ever comes out at Christmas. Hold up… I’m not supposed to be talking about melting bath bombs and marshmallow smelling ones at that! I’m supposed to talking about my ravaged skin and what I’m doing with it.

All items are from Lush and all are financed by myself.

The hands have it..

Well, they did in this case! I woke up one morning and looked at back of my right hand looked really dry skinned. It looks like injuries that have healed and the surrounding skin has gone a little to wrinkled. The left isn’t far behind.

So for my hands I chose Helping Hands. This stuff is a blessing. If you look at their website they openly admit that they created the cream with nurses in mind. As a nurse who has developed a latex allergy through over exposure and who’s hands will crack and bleed whenever they get dry. I always used to get Diprobase from my GP but this time around, I just wanted to try something that was non chemical and heavy duty, as my hands are, 75% of the time, awful. So, Heavy Duty here we come! There is honey, lavender, chamomile and marigold, linseed, almond butter, cocoa butter and shea butter. All of this mixed together to create the most wonderful smelling cream! It looked like I had new skin within minutes of using it! I will advise you is not to put any on if you meet to hold a pen in the next ten minutes. It is so rich, it does take a little time to soak in. But I love, love, LOVE, this hand cream and it gets a definite 8/10. It costs £8.25 for 100g so it’s a real bargain. Please trust me when I tell you that you need only the tiniest amount and it goes for miles!

On to the face…

This was the main subject of my little self care project. I have to slap my skin into shape before  wrinkles invade and my face looks like it needs plowing not moisturising!

To start off, I needed to choose a darn good cleanser. I’ve always had a bit of a thing about beauty and make up products smelling good, so it had to be Lush’s Let The Good Times Roll. It has the most amazing buttery popcorn smell you want to stick your finger in the pot and eat it instead of putting it near your face. It is really simple to use. You need take a piece of the cleanser, probably the size of a sprout in the palm of your hand and then add a couple of drops of water at a time until you can mix it into a paste. Then run the paste all over your face and neck whilst avoiding your mouth and eyes. When you are ready, rinse it off with warm water and pat your face dry. As soon as I have dried my face, I can feel my skin, especially on my cheeks tighten up and feel fresher. I do have to resist the urge not to lick my face though! Oh my it smells sooooooo good!!! A definite 10/10 on this one! It costs £7.50 for 100g and is worth every penny.

So, from cleanser to toner and sticking with Lush here comes Eau Roma Water. This is like a kiss in a spray bottle for sensitive skin. It has rose water which is excellent to calm and reduce redness while lavender water calms and softens the skin. It is £9.50 for 250g and you only need to spray a small amount to go a long way. A 9/10 product here!

Finally we move onto the serious business of moisturiser. The boss bitch of any make up routine! Given that concern over my increasingly ageing skin was the reason I started with this little self care routine, I wanted to be sure that I got the right one for me. So I read the website carefully and also looked at other people’s views of the moisturisers and finally I decided upon Imperialis. My skin can be greasy one day, then bright red, dry and itchy the next day. It really does not know what it wants to do sometimes. This cream is exactly right for me! It has lavender, St.John’s Wort, sweet violet, sunflower, elderflower and mullein which help to balance, restore and calm the skin. It’s another one of these miracle creams that you only need a tiny bit of and it just goes forever! I love it so much! I cleansed, toned and moisturised at 10am this morning and my face is still amazingly smooth! It costs £15.95 for 45g. A definite 10/10 product!

One other thing that I love about Lush is that they take all of their plastic back and reuse it, so it stays in the same cycle and out of landfill. Brilliant!

It seems somewhat crazy that such a simple thing as cleaning your skin in the morning could have such a positive impact on your mood. But self care is one of the most important things anyone who has a mental health issue can do. Care for you. Not everyone else. You matter!!!

Well, I guess that is all for now dear readers. I hope this review was worth your time. See you soon!x

Unboxing and Review of My First Birchbox – February ’18…

So here I am again with another subscription box. This one is on a totally different theme than my Blurt Buddy Box. It is a cosmetics subscription box, although one could argue that beauty products are also very much a part of self care and feeling good.

Why have I got a Birchbox?

Yet again, the lovely Jenna is to blame! 🤣🤣🤣 Blame her! I watched her vlog on YouTube and instantly decided that I wanted one, so I went online and hey presto!

Why am I writing a blog and not recording a vlog? Well, I am terrified of speaking when I think strangers might laugh at my voice (long story) and I have zero self confidence about my looks. So a blog it is my fine people!

I also need to stress at this point that I did not receive my Birchbox for free. It was paid for out of my own money.

What happens with Birchbox?

Like any other subscription box, you go online, then select the subscription plan you want or just by a one off box. Now in order to find out more, this is the website that you need to go to…


All of the information on what you need to do is on there. Once you sign up, you do need to answer a few questions about your beauty needs and preferences so that they can tailor your box to best suit your needs. Also, this month, you are invited to choose the theme of your actual box that your goodies arrive in. This months’ choice was 70’s, 80’s and 90’s. No brainer for me. I did my major growing up and my discovery of cosmetics in the 80’s so 80’s box it was.

What does it look like?

There is an outer cardboard sleeve to protect the box, with only minimal tape on (huge win there!) which can be recycled. The actual box itself is really snazzy, I love it. As you can see from my picture, there are a multitude of pinks, greens and blacks all over the box and it looks really good. The box itself is sturdy and can easily be upcycled or recycled. Bonus!

What’s in the box then?

There is a really yummy smell as I opened the box… coconut! Another one of mr favourite smells, that I didn’t mention in my last blog. I went on the hunt for the source of the smell and found it really quickly. It is a 30ml tube of LUSETA coconut milk hair mask that moisturises and nourishes your hair. It smells so good, I may have to get more of this one! A full sized pot of this is £32 so yes it is expensive but worth every penny!

Another hair related product in the box. Percy & Reed (London) hair finishing polish 30ml tube. You need only a pea sized amount to rub through your hair and it gives a style with definition and hold. The RRP is £10 so it looks like it should last a good while.

My favourite product out of the whole box is next. A full sized (50ml) tube of COWSHED moisturising hand creme. Now I’m at the age (45) where my collagen is going “See ya later alligator” but of course it never comes back. Asshole. Collagen is definitely off the christmas card list for sure! This hand creme is quite heavily perfumed but it is a nice smell. You only need a tiny amount and the stuff seems to spread for miles which makes it not only a pleasant but value for money item as it will last for ages. The RRP is £8 so well worth it. I’d definitely buy it again!

Next comes a gorgeous full sized trio of eyeshadows called In Love You So Latte. As you can see from the pallet photo, there are three dark brown/gold shades, which are my favourite colours! They apparently contain coffee extracts which help to brighten the eye. Bonus! I’ve done a swatch of each of the three colours on the back of my hand so you can get a better peep at what they look like on skin. They are really smooth and glide into the skin so easily. With a bargain RRP of just £7, I would definitely get this again!

Next comes a full sized Lord & Berry full sized concealer pencil in beige. It is a Birchbox exclusive. It works on blemishes and dark circles under your eyes. This is a major thing for me as I look like a freakin’ panda with my black eye circles! You just apply the pencil where you need it and blend in with your fingers. It has an RRP of £12 and yes, I would definitely consider buying this again! The photo underneath this first one is a swatch of the concealer on my thumb. It’s really pale and difficult to see wither this camera. I did my best with it.

I also got an epic free gift!!! I mean who doesn’t like free stuff right? It is a full sized Smith & Cult “Diary of a Beauty Junkie” The Shining lip lacquer or lip gloss as we call it in this house.

;-p It is a gorgeous pale pink colour and doesn’t fall down like some lip glosses do by being too sticky/tacky. It doesn’t tell me the RRP for this product, but hey, it was freeeeeeeee!

There is also a voucher to get some free retro photo prints. This is one thing I won’t be making any use of. As I mentioned before, I’ve got major self confidence issues and hate having my photo taken full stop.

If you subscribe, you get to make certain choices about your box. In March it is either a free BLAQ eye mask or peel off face mask. I’m thinking of the eye mask. Them thar panda eyes won’t shift themselves! 😜😜😜

Well my lovelies, that is pretty much it for this month’s subscription box. So when March’s Birchbox arrives I shall be back with a post to review it. But I’ll be back with other posts on a plethora of other things between now and then. Be kind to yourselves! See you soon!x