I can’t even…

I can’t even… move, think, function…

Today is mot a good day. I’m having pretty much rolling panic attacks and my anxiety is thrumming like a tautly strung guitar which makes me feel tremulous and shaky.

I cannot explain why I am like this. No matter what I do, I am not able to settle down and relax into what I want to do. I can’t colour – my eyes won’t focus and when I look at the colours, they all seem to shimmy and swirl into one unidentifiable colour.

My allodynia is driving me around the bend. My skin is super sensitive and even the breeze blowing across it makes it difficult to cope with and is super painful. Then when I get cooler, I try and use my duvet, but you can guarantee that my skin will scream and try to crawl away from the fabric because it just hurts too goddamned much. Then I also have hyperalgesia which is basically my Fibro amplifying every single bit of pain that I get by about 100 times. To finish off, my paresthesia is also really bad. It feels like thousands of tiny little knives are running up and down my skin and it quite honestly makes me want to cry.

Is this normal I hear you say? Hell yes it is. This is pretty much how it is every single damn day for me. I can never have a single day where my pain is not ruling my life. Yet you know what? I’m not looking for your pity. I would just like a little bit of understanding and the occasional hot water bottle please.

Be kind to each other.x

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Book Review – Joyfully His by Jamie Beck…

Folks in Sterling Canyon know that small towns have long memories. Two years after the DUI that injured a pedestrian, Andy Randall is still making amends. He hopes the Christmas spirit will help him get rehired as a ski instructor, but that job will come with conditions. He can’t afford another mistake, which is exactly what making a play for his former boss and friend, Nikki Steele, would be.

Nikki races down double black diamonds and hikes mountains better than most guys, unafraid of tumbling down the slopes. But trusting the guy who once shot her down could end in a fall that actually hurts, especially when she’d have to vouch for him with her boss. Still, the resort needs another instructor to handle the holiday tourists, and Andy’s sexy grin and relaxed charisma make him hard to resist.

With both of their reputations now on the line, can Andy convince Nikki that the second chance he wants isn’t only about the job?

Yes. It was that time again. I need the comfort of a good old soppy romance and as I had read and enjoyed the previous three books in the Sterling Canyon series, I wanted to read this novella just to see how things panned out.

Andy is the protagonist in this shorter story. It’s actually quite nice to see the story go to being from a male perspective from a change (the previous three books were all female led).

I must admit that I had thought he might one day end up with Emma, but by the end of book three, it is abundantly clear that that is not going to happen. So it was nice to see him given his (much shorter but still nice) love story.

It’s difficult to say a lot without giving the game away but it was a thoroughly enjoyable story and I was happy while reading it. I feel a bit sad to say goodbye to the Sterling Canyon characters as I built a fondness for them over the first three books.

I would definitely recommend that you read the series if you enjoy romance novels.

A four out of five star book.

Be kind to each other.x

Unboxing & Review of my Doki Doki box – June ’18…

I’m always happy to see this box arrive. It is a big toss up between kawaii box and the DokiDoki crate. They both have such utterly gorgeous things inside them and I always do my best to show them off and describe them adequately and hope I manage to get across just how cute they all are.

First out of the box is an awesome “bottle sock”. They are all the rage in Japan, meaning you can hold your cold drink without getting your hands all wet and cold. The one I got had mini Mt Fujis on it.

Next up was a super cute Sumikkogurashi cooler pad. This one you keep in either the fridge or the freezer before taking it to keep whatever you need cold.

Then comes a slim Rilakkuma glass. This glass is half frosted and has the image of two super cute little bears on it.

Next was a yellow see through PVC bag with the cute kawaii dog PomPomPurin on it. I adore this, I think it was my favourite of all.

Then came a Shiba Inu towel. Compared to the size of Western towels, its thin and long, but it has some very cute dog pictures on it. The towel was so long, I had to photograph it in two sections.

Well, as always, a super cute box and I loved everything. I chose to gift the glass to a very close friend of mine because I hoped it would cheer her up.

This is another five out of five star box.

Be kind to each other.x

Unboxing & Reviewing of my Treatbox – June ’18…

As always, I’m excited to receive a subscription box. As I’m relatively new to Treatbox compared to other subscription box companies, I’m still getting used to them and deciding whether or not to keep this one going.

The box arrived and it was beautifully wrapped as usual.

The first treat out of the box is a print out calendar for the month of June. Forgive me, even though it has my favourite flowers on it, sunflowers, I just don’t see the point of doing this. Everyone I know has calendar of their own or a diary. This just seems to be a waste of paper.

Next out is cute picture of four different flowers saying “Bloom where you are planted” I love that!

Then we have a gorgeous smelling tube of “Hello Sunshine” hand cream. It’s nice, but sadly won’t persuade me away from my Lush hand cream, whom I am PROUD to say I’m still a customer of!

Next comes a super cute pack of ten small citrusy smelling wipes. They fit into pretty much any bag!

Then we get a fabulous pack of seeds of my most favourite flowers in the whole world ever – sunflowers! 😍😍😍

Next there is a cute wall plaque that could be hung next to the back door. “In our back garden we plant dreams and grow miracles”.

Then we get a super cute pair of slanted tweezers. I needed to pluck my eyebrows so out they came and away I went!

Next was an adorable little sunflower charm that is on a cotton strand. The theory is that you make a wish as the bracelet is tied around your wrist and when the cord breaks, the wish comes true.

Then comes a big A4 pad that had meal planner sections and a shopping list next to it so you can make informed choices about your food choices. This is not really for me so the manshape will use it for waste paper.

Whilst there are some super items inside this box, I’m disappointed by the overall wastage of paper in this box which leaves me able to only leave a review of 3 out of 5 stars.

Be kind to each other.x