I don’t trust people…

I just can’t. I never have. Ever since I was a little girl, I have heard the mocking whispers and felt the patronising glances aimed at my back.

Even now, I know that you talk about me. You talk about how stupid and useless I am, and you’d be right. I am.

I just want to slip away into a dark corner, where I can be alone with my black paranoia.

24 thoughts on “I don’t trust people…

    1. theworrierdiaries

      I do that, too. Was the stranger who looked sad on the bus sad because of X, Y, Z? I hope she feels better. People who care about strangers are the best kind of people.

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  1. Replace paranoia with chocolate, and that dark corner ain’t so bad. 😉

    But seriously, I’m sorry you’re feeling rotten, and you most definitely are NOT stupid or useless. I hope you know that to be true, and if not, here’s me drowning out the whispers with my obnoxious voice singing Bob Marley’s 3 little birds.

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  2. It is probably prudent to be careful about who we trust, and in your case, it is completely understandable that you would find it hard to trust people and make yourself vulnerable again to trauma and pain. But I also believe, that you are on a healing path, and slowly, your anguish will be replaced by the memories of the anguish. Best wishes.

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  3. You are far from stupid. I love you as you are, you’re kind, caring, compassionate.

    I do talk about you. I tell my girls how brave you are. I tell them how you make me laugh. Not mean stuff, I don’t see anything to be mean to you about.

    ((((HUGS)))) xxxxx ❤️❤️❤️

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  4. Do hope you’ve turned that corner and the world is feeling a brighter place to be?

    There is no quick easy solution but each time you do cope and recover a bit quicker … resilience and coping tools. Chocolate, hot bath, long walk, you know what works best for you 🙂

    Take care dear Ravenwing!

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