I should be grateful. I have two wonderful, amazing children and am blessed to have some incredible friends too. Yet there is a space in my heart that is empty. It became empty 27 years ago when you died mum. You were the most elegant, stylish and beautiful woman. You were so kind and you loved me. Apart from my grandfather, you were the only one to love new when I was younger.
Despite how hellish my life was, I could always look at you bad feel happy and loved. I knew I was loved.
Then you had to leave me. It wasn’t your fault. You didn’t want to leave me. The cancer took you away from me. It left the biggest hole in my heart.
The years may have passed, but the hole is as large as ever and the pain is as raw and hellish as it ever was.
My wonderful, beautiful mum. I miss you so. I love you and I always will.